Posted 2 weeks ago

Family and Adult Responsibilities

Yeah, this is the last straw. Today marks the day that I take on my adult responsibilities. Apparently my family members couldn’t take care of themselves, so I have to start taking care of them. There are some many times their decisions cause the family so much trouble. I didn’t realize this but maybe all those hard times my family was causing me and I ended up having to solve their problems are hints that it’s time I take on my responsibilities as more than just a daughter but an adult. They were right that I would eventually be the one to keep hold of the family. I guess I found these obligations as annoying and frustrating because I was running away and refusing to accept the fact that is is my time. Alright, I will take it on then, I will start becoming an adult.

Posted 2 weeks ago

Spring Break 2014 Entry #6 [FINAL]

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My roommate and I had made plans before to go try Cheesecake Factory together since we’ve never been there before, so we decided to meetup during spring break. I brought my sister along cuz she never tried it as well. But my sister and I had to go to the mall early (around 9:10am) because our mom had to work, so she dropped us off early. So I spent half an hour there using some of the mall’s stores’ wifi to snapchat/bother people. While I was doing that my roommate told me she will be there a bit late and she was also trying to get tickets for a concert. Around the same time my cousin sent me a snapchat of her getting ready to get tickets for something. Then it hit me that they were both getting tickets for the same concert. I found out it was for the LA Korean Festival (some kpop concert) and the tickets were practically free. The sale starts at 10am and I was 5mins away. I asked my roommate for the link and I tried to get the tickets through my phone. It was so difficult cuz it wasn’t on the computer and I was disconnected from the page multiple time. I spent 30 minutes trying to get 2 tickets. I used 3 browsers and I even tried downloading the ticketmaster app (which was useless). But finally through many desperate attempts, I got them! I got two tickets! I’m bringing my sister along since she was there and I asked if she wanted to go.

After that, we finally went in and a while later my roommate arrived. We walked around a bit and then we finally went to Cheesecake Factory for lunch. The restaurant was super fancy and smelled of cheesiness lol. I thought the food was pretty good, though a bit pricey for me cuz I’m always broke. Other than that we walked around the mall and got some free samples. I tried Frosted Flakes flavored ice cream for the first time. It was tasty but honesty it remind me of the left over sugar milk from eating cereal. My roommate did the most shopping today, We also ran into my cousin at the mall today. I was expecting her cuz I she texted me earlier on the day. I told her maybe we’d run into each other while walking and we did, haha. At the end of the day, my sister and I bought soda and my roommate’s dad gave us a ride back home (Thank you so much!).

Overall, today was a really fun and tiring since we walked around for the whole day. But today is kinda the last day of my spring break since I have to head back to school tomorrow, so this will be my last spring break entry for 2014. OMG spring quarter is about to begin. The last quarter of my undergraduate year. I know it was go by very fast, so I hope everything will go well and I will be able to make some good memories.

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Giant fluffy macaroons!

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Do anyone remember this when they were a kid?

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Free samples! I hope I win the sweepstakes.

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I haven’t had meatloaf since high school so I thought, why not? I ordered Cheesecake Factory’s Famous Factory Meatloaf (lunch special). It was yummy and definitely a big portion for me. I had to give some to my sister. Overall I liked it.

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Saw a cute hat, but my head was too big for it :(

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Bought some sodas! I wanted my sister to try the ginger beer and we drank the Butterscotch beer today. I liked it a lot :P 

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Posted 3 weeks ago

star-spoopywholock-trek:

tarantallegra:

findingmyrecovery:

Wanted to share this helpful tool with anyone who needs it. A lot of people have a hard time putting their feelings into words and identifying what emotions they are feeling. This is called a feeling wheel. It can help you get to the core emotion you are experiencing and help you name each feeling when you’re overwhelmed with many emotions

this is so cool

THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT

Posted 3 weeks ago

Spring Break 2014 Entry #5

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Hung out with my friends today at Prado Shopping Center and ELAC. I haven’t seen them since winter break. It was great seeing them again :)

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I finally tried Jamba Juice. That Caribbean Passion was tasty :)

Had lunch at 88 Tea Bar. I thought the food was okay, but I didn’t like chicken katsu.

One of my friend got me Arizona tea, thanks!

Hung out at my friend’s place and chatted for hours. Her mom offered me strawberries. I didn’t know they eat salt with their strawberries, I thought the salt was sugar. Haha, guess who got surprised when she dipped her strawberry into a bunch of salt and ate it?

Posted 3 weeks ago

Spring Break 2014 Entry #4

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I washed my hair this morning cuz it was really bothering me. Then I went out for lunch with my sister. She got a take out curry, rice, and fried chicken from one place and ate it at this bistro place where I ordered a steamed salmon, wild mushroom, fettuccine with Alfredo sauce. Then we just walked around the nearby plaza for a few hours. I bought duct tape so I can package up my textbook for returns. A friend of mines called me up to meet up tomorrow and we chatted a bit about college stuff. I printed out my spring quarter’s syllabus (the psych class still haven’t post anything up) and updated everything into my google calender. I’m so ready to kill this quarter!

And an update on my spring bucket list:

  • Complete my the assignments for lab (20 cases)
  • Clean kitchen in apartment
  • Sign up for honors symposium
  • Update CV
  • Create public professional profile <~I’m not sure about this one anymore, so I’m taking it off
  • Job search
  • Honors thesis schedule plan for spring
  • Hang out with friends <~Working on it!

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Lunch, yum!

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Then we walked around the nearby plaza and ventured to the card section…

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Posted 3 weeks ago

actionables:

look at this picture

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when you see it, you cannot unsee it

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it’s a woman

PAINTED TO LOOK LIKE A PARROT

A WOMAN

it took me 5 minutes to find her

I WAS LIKE NO THAT’S NOT A WOMAN, THAT’S A PARROT

Posted 3 weeks ago

Spring Break 2014 Entry #3

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I watch a TED Talk video on nonverbal behavior and I worked on my lab assignments from 1pm-9pm. I finished them! I’m back at home right now. I guess my spring break begins now? Haha, a little late though. Oh! I found out my grades for winter quarter! It’s the first time I’ve ever got straight A’s! Yay, at least I accomplished getting all A’s for once in mhy school life.

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I took a picture before heading into lab. Today was super cloudy.

Yay, my first time! ^_^

My grad mentor gave me candy today, haha

Posted 3 weeks ago
Posted 3 weeks ago

I'm really not a fan of giving updates like these. But this time it seems necessary:

pewdie:

As you may have heard. Maker Studios, (the network I’m partnered with) was recently bought up by Disney. This is big news for many people. And since I’m their biggest partner; media use my face as the front of many articles regarding this.

This gives the impression that I’m “selling out” to…

Posted 3 weeks ago

Spring Break 2014 Entry #2

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I was working on updating my CV today and tried submitting my honors symposium abstract submission. Then from 3pm to 11pm, I worked on completing the cases at my lab. I saw my friend today who was working on her own stuff too. I waited for her cuz I didn’t want her to walk back alone. And I’m just having my late dinner right now… ahaha. I still have 8 more cases to go. I don’t know if I will get them done by tomorrow night… I might have to stay at school until thursday but I’m fine with that. 

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Look familiar? It’s the same type of sandwich I made last time. I’m currently eating it as I’m writing this. Dinner~

Spam, cheese, egg, basil, garlic salt, mayo, and bread

Posted 3 weeks ago

Spring Break 2014 Entry #1

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I helped my sister register for enrollment at a community college for summer school since she doesn’t know how to do it herself. Sigh… people need to learn how to take care of themselves. Other than that, I set up my agenda for spring 2014 quarter. I’m also waiting for my faculty adviser to approve and sign my application to do an oral presentation for my honors thesis (it’s part of the requirement). I cleaned up the apartment kitchen while jamming to edm. II ate dinner at 10pm what the heck. I’m supposed to update my CV but I’m reading manga right now haha… 

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My lunch, it was actually pretty yummy

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Posted 3 weeks ago
Posted 3 weeks ago

Spring Break 2014 Tumblr Entries 3/24/2014 to 3/30/2014

Yeah, why not record my last year as an undergraduate? I did summer break 2013 and winter break 2013 already, why not spring break 2014?

So something simple like last time…

1. Brief description of what did I do or happened today (e.g., was it an item on the bucket list?

2. Photo complimentary

And of course my spring break bucket list:

  • Complete my the assignments for lab (20 cases)
  • Clean kitchen in apartment
  • Sign up for honors symposium
  • Update CV
  • Create public professional profile
  • Job search
  • Honors thesis schedule plan for spring
  • Hang out with friends

*Might be updating some more do do items soon

Click for my Spring Break 2014 entries!

Posted 3 weeks ago

Winter 2014 Reflection

So 2 quarters down and 1 more to go. Isn’t it exciting? Well, let me begin my winter quarter reflection then…

Classes:

  • Psy140 (Social psychology): super fun class. Social psychology topics were kinda interesting but I mostly enjoy the class because of the professor cuz she was super funny and quirky. Her class and exam structure were easy for me to keep up with. I made plans in the beginning of the quarter to do well on the first 3 exams so I would’t need to take the final… and my plan went through! I got an A for the class, so good job to me.
  • Span2 (Intermediate Spanish): same as last quarter’s spanish course’s structure. I got the same instructor which was awesome since I’m familiar with his teaching style. I also got to see some of my old span classmates and meet some new ones as well. But honestly span2 was much harder than span1. More materials and the class pace was much faster as well. But I guess I managed to pass. Still don’t know my grade for this yet. I hope I get a B+ or a A-… just please let me pass without dropping my GPA.
  • Art (Digital Imaging Software for the Visual Arts): this was a 2 units class that occurs once every week for 2 hours. It was an okay class… very easy but kinda boring since we learn by watching online photoshop instructions. The instructor was nice. I got to work on two projects and watch my other classmates present their work… that’s about it. Still don’t know my grade for this yet, I hope I get an A.

Apartment Life: fun and crazy. I love my roommates. Apartment life is one of the things that makes my college life so much better, so thank you guys *hug*

Lab Work: I did not do a lot of research assistant work this quarter since I was focused on my honors thesis and preparing stuff for the conference.

Honors Thesis: I’ve started on this during my summer research internship last summer. To me, it’s a three part project thing that I keep expanding. The second part is for the conference poster presentation. The third part is for the completion of the honors thesis itself. I work with my grad mentor on this and I oversee a coding team that help me generate usable data so I can complete my honors thesis in the spring.

Conference: The conference was at Austin, Texas and lasted for 3 days (thur, fri, and sat 3/20-3/22). I drove to Arizon with my grad mentor (4 hours) and then her boyfriend and her took turn driving to Texas (14 hours). We stayed at the Hampton hotel and the conference was nearby at the Hilton hotel. I saw and learned a lot from the conference. It’s like a totally new and amazing experience for me and the experience definitely made me want to continue the route to finding a career in research. It feels amazing being there although I do admit it’s kinda scaring since all these important researchers from many different disciplines gather here for this conference. But regardless, I’m pretty sure I will adapt to it. But yeah, I had my first ever poster presentation on friday. I was actually a little bit disappointed because only 2 people asked me about my research topic (at the start of the 1 hour session and at the end of the session). Apparently they were not interested in the population I was looking at… but hey, at least I still went through with it. It is still experience. Other than the poster conference, I also looked at other people’s poster boards and attended symposiums, all of them were super insightful. I am super grateful to my grad mentor and lab faculty to allow me this opportunity.

Personal Things: So of course not everything is happy happy for this quarter… I still have my anxiety, depressive, and self-doubt tendencies. This quarter was horrible because I resulted in procrastination… specifically I procrastinated a bit on my thesis project because I let my fears and negativity get to me. I din’t manage time well because I drowned in my own emotions. So yeah. I came to a realization and picked up my slacks as my deadline came closer. And now I realized how incredibly weak I was because I lost control and sight of my goals. Never again. I hope to never go through that mess again.

Inspiring people: I’m not going to point out names but I will talk about the feelings and observations I get through interacting with them.

  • Passion: They all share a passion for one thing. They love what they are doing. They see the greatness of the thing that interest them the most. Yes, even they have to deal with difficulties when pursuing their passion. But do they stop? NO. They made sacrifices and they hung tight and kept moving on because they believe that whatever they are aiming for is worth it. 
  • Helping hand: They don’t turn you away. They offer you their helping hand and they never abandon you. They assist you through a sense of concern and hope that you would succeed. They go out of their way (more than what you’d expect) to help you. You can trust them. They don’t hate people, they don’t turn away those in need. They want to do more than just for themselves.
  • Identity: They know themselves well. They know and acknowledge their weakness and vulnerabilities but they don’t dwell on them. They realize their strengths and they build on them. They are also not afraid to be themselves and they stick to their values and beliefs and they fight for them too. They hold strong and they know what they want.

And this is why I am so grateful to know and interact with these people. They taught me a lot and I have learned from them a lot. They might now have realized hope big of an impact they have on another person. They are truly amazing people and I hope to keep them with me as I work my way up to their status as well.

Hopes, goals, and direction: Winter 2014 was a wonderful college experience. I really feel that I have grown in learning more about myself. I am less afraid because I have overcome things that I would never have thought I would ever have done. There are people who have helped me so much in reaching my goals. I refuse to let their efforts and expectations for me go to waste. I am not alone. And whoever tells me otherwise, they are not my ally. So, it is time for me to become the young adult I am. So what are my plans for my final quarter of my undergraduate college life?

  • Complete the last requirements for my psych major (psy169), stat minor (stat127), and foreign language (span3) without lowering my GPA
  • Honors Thesis completion and oral presentation
  • More lab involvement because this was the place that gave me the opportunity to thrive. I must show my gratitude.
  • Job/internship search process for my 1 year gap
  • Make memories with friends

And that concludes my winter 2014 evaluation.

Posted 1 month ago

Done with finals!

I will be writing an evaluation for this quarter after this week.